It happened! the day I thought that wouldn't come....I finally get to see Justin again, well I've seen him on the field of course.... but now in person! face to face!
After practice ended, all the boys went into the locker rooms. While they were in there, Britta and I stood and waited for Justin. I was like jumping, so Britta tried calming me down. But her attempts failed. I was overwhelmed with joy. If my heart could, I'm sure it would be beating like a drum.
Some of the boys started coming out. I was mentally melting away. Then there he was! Justin! He's like five steps away from me! 4.....3.....2.....wait what? He walked right past me....didn't he see me? I'm really confused..... I was lost in my own confusions, I looked at Britta with a blank...emotionless face... The she pulled me to the side, sat me down and told me what I had missed when I died.
I couldn't believe it, right now I wish I could die all over again. But this time, not come back. When Britta told me what I have missed, I felt like I lost everything... She told me that when I was gone He never really noticed I was dead, but thought that I have been avoiding him since we don't see each other much anymore. Like I was mad at him for that... She also told me the worst news... He was dating the worst girl at our school, I didn't ever want to lose him to her!
Her name was.... Madison. She was the girl all the guys fell for, and she knew that. Madison could get any guy she wanted, and she would do the same game to all of them. The poor boys didn't even realise that she had them wrapped around her fingers... It drives me crazy! She does all of it on purpose! And now she has Justin, my Justin. Well he's not exactly mine, but he would have been...in time. I love him so much, it makes me crazy! Now of all the people I have to give him up to, I will never let her have him. No, Madison you can't! I may be dead, but you will never have him. Over my dead body! I died for him! I loved him too much it killed me! never!
I was literally heart broken, I felt it split right down the middle inside my chest. He really did ignore me though, I think that part hurt the most. I hope Justin knows that I would never do anything like that to hurt him......
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